look,my computer's down.

i know i know,sad right?heh,don't be.

If you guys wanna contact me,contact me through my phone.

9483****. (:

toodles!

i'm getting better & a little worser.yesterday i got a new name, chun li! cannot believe they choose that.laughs.slack with nin and others yesterday.I put some make up for uzair,trust me.HE LOOK LIKE A GAY MAN! okay,may be meeting nin they all later. Dun feel like posting anymore. Bye.

Put everything behind me,it's all past.I've got to pick myself up and start living a life happily.I want to see that smile again.

Drink yesterday and yeh,if i were to choose again,i won't wanna take the choice of drinking.Oh,whatever.

Nin,it wasn't your fault. it wasn't anyone fault.It was our ego's fault.I don't want to blame anyone for this.My ego was partially at fault too.Sorry.

Dear you-know-who-you-are,I'm glad you know i'm mad at you.I'm also disspointed,sad,frustrated at you.maybe someday,i can forgive you and forget everything.Give me time.

I saw you,your true colours.Thanks for doin everything that leads to my disadvantages.You're playing in a game that i don't want to take part in. you won.i quit.I know i'm an obstacle to what you want to achieve..congratulation,you've won.I don't mind people ignoring me,i mind being back-stabbed/bad-mouth or rumours about me which is not true.I hate that. You should know who you are by now. tsk..big fake smiles & stupid lies.I don't mind not contacting every single one of you,but just don't fucking act like you're my goodfriend because you are not and you never will. a leopard never change it spots.Thanks,thank you so much.You're a great person you know,because of you, you lead to downfalls of others and me. woah,never judge a book by its cover. Remember one more thing, i don't hate you. i just loathe your attitude. And don't pull others into this crazy shit when people are innocent.

Thanks for all the comforting words you guys gave me yesterday.I may feel a little better,but i feel much more worser.but thanks for the try guys.And please,have no internal conflicts.it's sucky isn't it.Take good care guys.

My birthday wish was not to have internal conflicts and everyone to be happy.

God,seems like you didn't hear my prayers.I'll never believe in wishes and hopes again.

She had to move on even if it's leaving her precious little friendships behind her.

God,I feel so depressed.

There's a pain in my heart.

Put away the pictures,

Put away the memories.

I put over and over,

Through my tears.

Guess i'll just have to learn,

learn the art of letting go.

So happy.i spent two hours doing this onsugar stuff.Had this sudden feelings to make eveerything go pink !

Alright,i'm dead hungry now.Joy & kechyk came my house early in the morning,woke me up and slept in my bed.Damn them,lol.And now,i'm gonna wake them up because i'm really dead hungry. ): Tooddles!

Anyone understand my title?It's hard when your friends are undergoing  internalconflicts,it's even harder when you're sandwich-ed by them.Everyone has their own negative side,nobody's perfect.It hurts to see them being so close on the outside,but on the inside their motive is so wrong.it hurts alot.it's not funny & nice to lose friends.when you walk down the street months/years later,you'll remember the heartache you've experience when you saw the friend you've had great memories with.and you'll feel a little aching in your heart and you'll be thinking like,how naive am i,to lose such a friend. maybe him/her may be thinking like, yes,his/her attitude suck like shit.Ever think of what others think about you too? revenge is also something which shouldn't exist in the world, but it had to because of the popularity they gain from peoples hatred. what comes around goes around. people,do you hate someone?if yes,don't you feel tired everyday thinking of "ohhhh,how i hate her/him" or " why is this person even alive,gosh!" ,why not think of your love ones instead of someone you loathe.seriously,think about what i've said. I've hate people before,but it took me less than a month to really think about it and let it go.The moment i let it go,i felt like i've been more cheerful and happy then ever before. no one is born in this world unwanted,it's just people don't treasure what they had and throw them away. I believe , one day.everything that i've said here will make you guys think seriously.

Oh yeh,and one more thing.i didn't upload all the pictures as i was lazy.heh. the pictures i'll be uploading next will be the mini -celebration for me from kechyk & joy. Thanks.

They're planning something or doing something which they don't allow me to see it ._.

and...voila!

The smile which is pure,is the happiness of the real you.

-End-

psst!sorry joy,your photo can't be uploaded for some personal reason. i'll edit first before uploading(:

Happy Sweet sixteen Babe.

Like finally,i'm sixteen.LOOOVE IT.

I had a really fun day on 15 october & 16 October. I was kinda surprise and nearly cried when i went home with madeline.I knew there was something going on,but i didn't know that they took such great effort to help me celebrate.It's also the first time my parents join in this kinda stuff and thanks my sister whom put in such great effort for me(:Thank you. Now,Let the picture do the talking. Videos will be in facebook(:

I didn't get the chance to open the door!

Happy as a lark.

I love the cake(:

Ignore the sick face of mine. It was a candid.

CUTE.

MY JOY , phedraa :D

EEE.

SWEET THEM.

]

LMAO.

LOOK at the way we seat, like sheperd like sheep :D

AWESOME HAIR!

MONKYET!

Shorty! :P

i wanna take picture with each and everyone,but yongcong just wouldn't give me face ._.

BestFriend for life , Nerd & paikia xD

IVAN TANNNN TAN TAN !

Murderer!

Group Photo!

This is a Fun shot.

Gangster shot :D

Boy vs Girl. Girl won, haha.

Who the hell are we saluting to sia-.-

My MAID of the day xD

ChipMunks <3

FUNNY PICTURE TO THE MAX :

On 16, Celebrated with 3a/3bians (: Didn't have photo. But really had a fun/wet/dirty day.Thanks for the presents too, and the cake. And the flour and water-.-!Thank you so much guys(: ya, and ofcause,the water is so damn cold la. but i like~

Thanks To :

Madeline,Yong cong,ivan,nicholas,weiyi,shervelle,joalina,phedra,abel,zhikang,kechyk,joy,joey,rizal,ithnin,diniy,khairul,shafiq khan,amira,uzair,bryan,palat,azzizat.

(Who give me their congrates.)

daivid,powell,poh shen,chunhong,kuan boon,wani,Jacqueline,Brendon,ameline,Alfred,eileen,Di no,Vanessa,Jovin,Ahpui,Hui si,Yu Kai,Yui,xiaojing,weijie,jian hui,Zhilin,Germaine,Kim,Xinxue,taufiq,Thiamyou,Joshua,armound,Tammy.

(If your name is not mention above this post,please tell me.Don't wanna leave out you guys sweet messages(: )

Everything wasn't going quite well

Am i afraid of retaining again?Yes i am.I'm afraid of those those stares which pity me.I'm sick and tired of people telling me to study.I know & i know that i had to study,but i just can't seems to put all this formulae and all in my mind.is it my fault too?I think so.Something which i was so stress about wasn't this,it was another stuff.I hate to say it,but why are people sacrificing me to meet up with their goodfriends needs?I don't want to have another breakdown, i don't wanna cry myself a gosh darn river,i don't want to be pitied by people.I don't have to be pitied.like what i say,i'm stronger than whoever thinks regardless of my size.i just hope every suffering matters will just stop and have a new start of something joyful.

Tags reply!

Lenadumb:Dumb!Is not i don't want study hard.i know i've not try my best,i've tried my very best already ): love you guys too.

EileenLove:Aiai!aku cintakan kamu :D don't ask me,ask mrs.tang if she'ld promote me.LOL.

Weicong: How many times must i say not to call me CHIOBU!i aint one and im not gonna be one.Geees,and you sounded like i'm your superstar and you're the fan.hahahahahha!i will try(:

Madeline: You this idiot!i also know people want me go up to sec 4, you think easy for me uh-.-! MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!! HAHAHAHHAS, please don't say you love me,i'll feeel sooooo disgusted. HAHAHAH. i love you too maddy~ :D

I think i flunk my history & chinese. all i know for chinese is just " you,me,him" , that's all i know. Gosh,history?Let's not even talk about it. ):

study with kechyk & joy(again) hope i won't fail my social studies):

Okay, i seriously got nothing to write (: Toodles.

Tags Reply

Ila: HELLO. you're link!(:

Aishah: Cause i like it:x , hahas. joking!

Madeline: idiot,you're re-linked. never call me de lor you!

Weicong: i tell you how many times i'm not chio bu!!!

Whitney: Xingan!<3 jiayou too (:!

Joalina: might as well don't tag. LOLS.

I can't believe tomorrow's the day.Exaaam.O.M.G!I can't believe time passes so fast.I'm gonna flunk maths ):

Today was super funny,you know what happened?i tell you.

we were having TOP programme and was learning about english,and somehow teacher wanted to give an example of 'the center cannot hold'.so he drew an atom,and the nucleus.and when he was drawing the nucleus,he didn't really shade all.so it's something like a nipple.i know that sound abit ' eee'! wth,joy and me was like laughing all the way and was giving the looks of ' i-know-what-you're-thinking'! LMAO! anyway,after school went out with 3a/b-ians.

Had a study session with joy,kechyk came after that. was watching 3a/b-ians playing soccer.They sure know how to make people laugh with their unintentional falls and acts.*laughs* Thanks azizzat for teaching me maths.After which,took bus home with kechyk,nad & amira.OH,and poor kechyk,kena the face by the soccer xD

16 october my birthday!!!!

Tags reply

Diniy: Smack you sia,what smelly!i will try (: i feel like i'm always making you laugh, hahaha.joker me!

Lena:Dumb best , thanks many many. <3!

Eileen:I think so?hahahhas.